Jackie O
I put my sunglasses on
So you can't see me cry.
I'm withering,
Shivering inside.
Thrown away the sheild of caution
for a sheild of pain.
I pray for Sunshine
to knock out the rain.
I'm exhausted,
I feel totally drained
But nothing lost,
is nothing gained.
I ride, I ride,
I ride all alone amongst
the crowd.
I'm afraid to be seen,
I'm afraid to shout.
Although not invisible,
you wouldn't believe
How I try, but fail,
to deceive.
I put my sunglasses on
to hide you from my eyes
From peering,
prying in my pride.
I am weary to be
vulnerable,
I feel I cannot take the risk.
Ask something personal,
my answer will be brisk.
Walking backwards down the
corridor.
I keep on wishing,
I once had something more.
The cost is high,
not what my life
can afford.
I put my sunglasses on,
so you can't see me escape.
You're talking and talking,
I'm backing away
So I can thwart your berate.
No one can love me
just the way I am
I must change,
re-arrange to belong
to a "perfect" man.
Something in my soul rings,
pull the bell of notice.
I ignore, I ignore,
I try to snore through this
but all darkness in the lenses,
cannot block the light.
Finally, but Finally,
After a matter of time...
I pull my sunglasses off
so you can see me cry.
I've wasted so much time,
there's nothing left to deny.
I'll show myself,
so you can see the truth.
I'm done with the mask,
done with the shade,
finished with the sherade.
Here I am,
All that I am.
Nothing more,
nothing less.
No Need for proof.
Natalie Steele 2004
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