I am FINALLY getting to see the whole picture

When I left the native land, Canada, on my journey to England, little did I know about who I was, where I had come from, who God REALLY was and what faith means. Stripped of everything I knew, I felt like I was naked infront of every one. I could no longer hide from the things, and people who know me in Canada. When God took everything away from me, I screamed, I cried, I was angry, drained, and fustraited. All of this was for a purpose. In fact, it still is for a purpose.

Staying in England with my adopted family has been one of the most humbling, challenging, and blessed times of my life. Jonathan and Sung Joo have taught me so many things about living a life with faith. I could never explain it all to you, but I can live it. I've learned that living out what you have learned in faith is a powerful message to others.

During my time here in England, God has washed me clean of sin and has brought healing throughout my whole being. When sin left my life, I was finally able to start to hear the voice of my shepard, to understand His Word. Beforehand, I could not decipher His voice from the so many others I hear each day. I could not understand what the Bible was REALLY saying to my heart. You see, light and darkness cannot dwell in the same place. Everything began to change when I discovered the truths God had for me. I now know what it means to be "transformed by His Word."

For the first month, I sobbed on my face at God's feet. The importance of spending time in God's presence impacted my life so largely. He has become my first instinct instead of my last. I learned what it was to have a relationship with God, not a oneship, and to give it my all. I have continued to spend a lengthly amount of time each day with God, not only because its part of my missions objective, but more because I ENJOY the FACE TIME with God. It is no longer a chore, or just another daily rountine, it is my LIFE... to serve God. Until this year, I did not see any of this like I do now. I was terribly decieved by satan's curses over my life.

God has removed my desire to be comfortable in the mask I wore, in the pain of the past, and in my lazy Christianity. God also removed any attachment to material things. He spoke to me through that about His simplicity and gave me a desire for "extreme obedience"; drop everything and follow Him, knowing that I will have no place to lay my head. God brought me the humbling experience of being who He has created me to be, not what others expect me to be. I used to take pride in what I thought was my knowledge, my understanding, my wisdom, my intelligence. I was WRONG. Man is NOTHING withouth submitting to God in his flesh, admitting his weaknesses as a man, and asking for the Holy Spirit to give His wisdom, understanding, knowledge, and intelligence. When we are weak, HE is strong.

An important revelation for me was the knowledge that my identity lies in Christ and not in perfection, not in how beatutiful I am, not in how intelligent I am, not in how many good deeds I do for others, not in approval from humans, nor in the compliments that people give me. People will never satisfy a human heart, only God can. I realized that by being insecure and comparing myself to others, was judging God's creation. I had no place to scorn that. Finding my identity in Christ means I can proclaim that "I am Natalie Marie Steele, an individual. I am called. I am chosen. I am a Child of God." The Lord gives me the strength to stand alone with Him amongst a crowd.I tell all of these things that I have experienced to encourage my fellow Christians to run the race, to be real, to daily seek God and His direction. God loves you deeply, more than you could ever imagine. It is for this reason that I open myself up to be vulnerable and real with you.

I was inspired to call my blogger M.W.O.G - Might Woman of God, Because that is what God desires for me to be. When we speak and live out a prophecy over our lives, we pray it into existence. Seek him and find your calling. In him, we are all MIGHTY! God Bless you all.

Love In Christ,
Natalie M. Steele

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